Let's Get Real: Still Effin' Lost

Let's Get Real: Still Effin' Lost

Saturday, 22 October 2016

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11 months ago I wrote a post called Let's Get Real: I'm Lost (read it here). In that post I talked about how I was feeling after finishing university and that I really didn't know exactly what it is that I wanted to do with my life. I felt really lost, and if I'm honest, scared. Well it's been nearly a year since that post, a year I've spent thinking about nothing but what to do with my life, except now I'm a year older, I'm no closer to knowing what I want out of my life and now I'm terrified.

This is gonna sound really over dramatic but stick with me here, I'm painfully aware that I'm going to die one day, I'm also painfully aware that I have no idea when that will be and I'm really scared that I'm going to die before I've achieved all the things I want to. I think about that every single day.  But here's where things get really messed up and complicated because how can I possibly work towards anything if I don't know what I'm working towards? This is a question that has kept me up at night and still does. At this point it just feels like all I'm doing is wasting my own time and that's probably the scariest thing, because a year has just gone and I can't even tell you what I've achieved in that year. I don't know. I just feel that at 25 years old I should have my life together, at least a little bit, and I should have more of an idea of what I want and I just don't - Sidenote: should is a really horrible word! -  don't get me wrong I have taken some positive steps this year but it doesn't feel like enough.

Life is a scary old thing, and the scariest thing about it is that it ends, usually before we're ready for it. I'm really sorry that this post has been super depressing and moany. Talk about first world problems. It's something I've been thinking about for a while now, well nearly a year, and I just wanted to get it off my chest. If anyone else is going through something like this then please let me know, either by commenting below - I always reply so check back -, on twitter, or dropping me an email at lolarocknroses@gmail.com. Also check out my instagram, facebook, bloglovin', snapchat -search lolarocknroses - & pinterest for regular updates.

Love love love xxx

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Let's Get Real: Feeling Lost

Let's Get Real: Feeling Lost

Tuesday, 29 September 2015

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I was going to tell you all about the drugstore's greatest handcream (Garnier's Intense 7 Days Restoring Hand Cream for Dry & Chapped Hands just fyi) but I  have sat down to write today's post so many times and the words are just not coming. I have no idea what it is that I want to say. I think it's fair to say that there are some very important things in life that I'm short of, confidence and hair that doesn't make me look like Ronald McDonald for example, BUT words are not normally one of them. Lately though... I'm a bit lost. For words and just in life in general.

I finished uni about three weeks ago and I haven't got a clue what I to do. I don't even know what I want to do. And it's got to the point now where I've actually run out of diversionary tactics. Life is looming, large and terrifying, in front of me and I have no idea what to do with it. I just don't know. 

The thing is at this point there is no avoiding the question. It's everywhere I go. So, what do you want to do with your life? And the answer is I absolutely don't know. I just don't, I have no idea and that thought is TERRIFYING. It's so scary! 

In all honesty all I want to do is to get paid to go travelling and spend my time in my pyjamas, writing about make up,  surfing youtube, reading whatever I want, whenever I want and eating bad food, with occasional visits to the gym. That's what I want! That's all I want. 

We shall see.

So that's my quarter life crisis. If anyone else is experiencing something like this please let me know by commenting below, on twitter or by dropping me an email at lolarocknroses@gmail.com I really hate feeling like I'm going through this alone. 

Psst... also check out my instagram, facebook, bloglovin', snapchat - search lolarocknroses - & pinterest for updates

Love love love xxx

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